A lot of people say that friends are the family you choose... It's very true, friends become this group of people that you tell your deepest secrets to *they might even be better than diaries*. The crazy thing is, you get so close to them that you even choose them to be the maid of honor/best man at your wedding instead of your sister/brother OR you choose them to be the godparents of your child rather than your siblings or cousins... But the only sad part is unlike a family, sometimes friends drift away and things are never the same.
What are you suppose to do when you realize that a friendship that you've worked sooo hard on keeping suddenly falls apart? It's like watching the Jenga blocks fall right in front of you but no matter how hard you try to catch the pieces, it's still going to break. BUT the difference between the two is when you build the Jenga blocks, you know it'll collapse in the end because you're taking important pieces out... But with friendship, sometimes its sudden.
There's many reasons why friends drift away, could be because one of you moved far, one became very busy, orrrr one just suddenly blocks you so "they can grow"
But I've realized that the saddest thing about losing a friend is seeing them again for the first time after months of not talking and realizing that EVERYTHING CHANGED. You would hope that after not seeing each other for months, you'd jump at each other and laugh about the dumb shit that happened in the 3 months that none of y'all didn't talk. Sadly, no words were exchanged- not even a glance or a faint smile. It was like all the silly inside jokes you had before were non existent.
You say that you don't care but somehow that person always manages to come up in every conversation you have with the rest of your friends. Perhaps its the unspoken way of saying, "man I do miss her..."